Minutes spent listening to music on Spotify – 60,624
Total steps – 2,323,807 (don’t judge, I have a desk job.)
Books read – 10
- “The Phantom Prince” – Elizabeth Kendall, Molly Kendall
- “John Wayne Gacy: Defending a Monster” – Sam L. Amirante, Danny Broderick
- “The Five” – Hallie Rubenhold
- “You Will Get Through This Night” – Daniel Howell
- “Tools of Titans” – Tim Ferriss
- “The Hillside Stranglers” – Darcy O’Brien
- “Take Control of Your Life” – Mel Robbins
- “Unf*ck Your Brain” – Faith G. Harper
- “A Work In Progress” – Connor Franta
- “The Midnight Library” – Matt Haig (reread, but cannot recommend enough.)
- + 5 HP books for escaping the reality
Favorite game – Eastshade (thx sis!)
Duolingo (French) – 120 day streak
Headspace courses completed – 5
- Healing After A Breakup
- Dealing With Regret
- Navigating Change
- Reframing Loneliness
- Sports | Training
Days vegetarian – probably too many?
Drug stats:
- allergy pills ~ 365
- antibiotics – plentiful (bless sinusitis for entering my brain)
- cigs – a couple too many
- beers – waaay too many
- mdma – not enough lol
Running distance logged ~ 100-something km (I’m starting to think running isn’t for me really.)
Extreme runs participated in – 2 (Tough Guy Run and Battle For Life aka the death run ffs Rando why)
Youtube channels binged – many
- Yes Theory (Seek Discomfort!)
- Michelle Khare (Challenge Accepted)
- MrBeast (Jimmy Donaldson)
- Anthony Padilla (former Smosh, y’all know him)
- Corpse Husband (faceless streamer and hacker)
- Dani (game development)
- Hannah Lee Duggan (aesthetically pleasing vlogs)
Cars burned down – 1
Cars bought – 1 (mf broke down 40 hours after buying it)
Times moved cities – 1
Parties hosted – 2?
Trips taken abroad – 1
Trips taken almost abroad – 1
Teambuildings attended – 2?
Gigs attended – some
Awards received – 1 (thx Anne!)
Time spent hiding in the woods – not enough
Days spent wallowing in self-hatred – uncountable
Random shit I did for the first time:
- Set a house on fire y’all
- Sold a (burned down) car
- Befriended a neighbor (bizarrely after setting our house on fire, not before)
- Talked to lawyers
- Researched law and insurance companies
- Accumulated debt whoopdedoop
- Rented a van for moving
- Rented a car for……driving
- Bought a used car
- Ordered spare parts for my car
- Got my car fixed (like three times by now)
- Realized I did a lot of car stuff
- Went bouldering
- Started sketching and journaling
- Watched my parents separate.
Memories created – billions and bi….actually not that many.
So that was 2021. I hated it. I hurt people, I got hurt, I made stupid decisions and was unbelievably unlucky in some circumstances in which a negative attitude was really easy to default to. For those I hurt – I really am sorry and cannot justify it with having a stressful year. I do not want to write another recap like this which is why 2022 will probably bring along a lot of changes. Do look out for at least one ridiculous and random blog post this year and some videos I’ve been putting off editing, because shit hurts and I don’t want to go back to some places mentally, but I do need closure and I will get them done.
I leave you with some self-deprecating humor.
Cheerio, motherfuckers.
Disclaimer: I do not claim ownership of most of the images above.
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